“Ibegintobesorrythathecomesatall,”saidJanetohersister。“Itwouldbenothing;Icouldseehimwithperfectindifference,butIcanhardlybeartohearitthusperpetuallytalkedof。Mymothermeanswell;butshedoesnotknow,noonecanknow,howmuchIsufferfromwhatshesays。HappyshallIbe,whenhisstayatNetherfieldisover!”
“IwishIcouldsayanythingtocomfortyou,”repliedElizabeth;“butitiswhollyoutofmypower。Youmustfeelit;andtheusualsatisfactionofpreachingpatiencetoasuffererisdeniedme,becauseyouhavealwayssomuch。”
Mr。Bingleyarrived。Mrs。Bennet,throughtheassistanceofservants,contrivedtohavetheearliesttidingsofit,thattheperiodofanxietyandfretfulnessonhersidemightbeaslongasitcould。Shecountedthedaysthatmustintervenebeforetheirinvitationcouldbesent;hopelessofseeinghimbefore。ButonthethirdmorningafterhisarrivalinHertfordshire,shesawhim,fromherdressing-roomwindow,enterthepaddockandridetowardsthehouse。
Herdaughterswereeagerlycalledtopartakeofherjoy。Janeresolutelykeptherplaceatthetable;butElizabeth,tosatisfyhermother,wenttothewindow—shelooked,—shesawMr。Darcywithhim,andsatdownagainbyhersister。
“Thereisagentlemanwithhim,mamma,”saidKitty;“whocanitbe?”
“Someacquaintanceorother,mydear,Isuppose;IamsureIdonotknow。”
“La!”repliedKitty,“itlooksjustlikethatmanthatusedtobewithhimbefore。Mr。whats-his-name。Thattall,proudman。”
“Goodgracious!Mr。Darcy!—andsoitdoes,Ivow。Well,anyfriendofMr。Bingleyswillalwaysbewelcomehere,tobesure;butelseImustsaythatIhatetheverysightofhim。”
JanelookedatElizabethwithsurpriseandconcern。SheknewbutlittleoftheirmeetinginDerbyshire,andthereforefeltfortheawkwardnesswhichmustattendhersister,inseeinghimalmostforthefirsttimeafterreceivinghisexplanatoryletter。Bothsisterswereuncomfortableenough。Eachfeltfortheother,andofcourseforthemselves;andtheirmothertalkedon,ofherdislikeofMr。Darcy,andherresolutiontobeciviltohimonlyasMr。Bingleysfriend,withoutbeingheardbyeitherofthem。ButElizabethhadsourcesofuneasinesswhichcouldnotbesuspectedbyJane,towhomshehadneveryethadcouragetoshewMrs。Gardinersletter,ortorelateherownchangeofsentimenttowardshim。ToJane,hecouldbeonlyamanwhoseproposalsshehadrefused,andwhosemeritshehadundervalued;buttoherownmoreextensiveinformation,hewasthepersontowhomthewholefamilywereindebtedforthefirstofbenefits,andwhomsheregardedherselfwithaninterest,ifnotquitesotender,atleastasreasonableandjustaswhatJanefeltforBingley。Herastonishmentathiscoming—athiscomingtoNetherfield,toLongbourn,andvoluntarilyseekingheragain,wasalmostequaltowhatshehadknownonfirstwitnessinghisalteredbehaviourinDerbyshire。
Thecolourwhichhadbeendrivenfromherface,returnedforhalfaminutewithanadditionalglow,andasmileofdelightaddedlustretohereyes,asshethoughtforthatspaceoftimethathisaffectionandwishesmuststillbeunshaken。Butshewouldnotbesecure。
“Letmefirstseehowhebehaves,”saidshe;“itwillthenbeearlyenoughforexpectation。”
Shesatintentlyatwork,strivingtobecomposed,andwithoutdaringtoliftuphereyes,tillanxiouscuriositycarriedthemtothefaceofhersisterastheservantwasapproachingthedoor。Janelookedalittlepalerthanusual,butmoresedatethanElizabethhadexpected。Onthegentlemensappearing,hercolourincreased;yetshereceivedthemwithtolerableease,andwithaproprietyofbehaviourequallyfreefromanysymptomofresentmentoranyunnecessarycomplaisance。
Elizabethsaidaslittletoeitherascivilitywouldallow,andsatdownagaintoherwork,withaneagernesswhichitdidnotoftencommand。ShehadventuredonlyoneglanceatDarcy。Helookedserious,asusual;and,shethought,moreashehadbeenusedtolookinHertfordshire,thanasshehadseenhimatPemberley。But,perhapshecouldnotinhermotherspresencebewhathewasbeforeheruncleandaunt。Itwasapainful,butnotanimprobable,conjecture。
Bingley,shehadlikewiseseenforaninstant,andinthatshortperiodsawhimlookingbothpleasedandembarrassed。HewasreceivedbyMrs。Bennetwithadegreeofcivilitywhichmadehertwodaughtersashamed,especiallywhencontrastedwiththecoldandceremoniouspolitenessofhercurtseyandaddresstohisfriend。
Elizabeth,particularly,whoknewthathermotherowedtothelatterthepreservationofherfavouritedaughterfromirremediableinfamy,washurtanddistressedtoamostpainfuldegreebyadistinctionsoillapplied。