ThecontentsofthisletterthrewElizabethintoaflutterofspirits,inwhichitwasdifficulttodeterminewhetherpleasureorpainborethegreatestshare。ThevagueandunsettledsuspicionswhichuncertaintyhadproducedofwhatMr。Darcymighthavebeendoingtoforwardhersistersmatch,whichshehadfearedtoencourageasanexertionofgoodnesstoogreattobeprobable,andatthesametimedreadedtobejust,fromthepainofobligation,wereprovedbeyondtheirgreatestextenttobetrue!Hehadfollowedthempurposelytotown,hehadtakenonhimselfallthetroubleandmortificationattendantonsucharesearch;inwhichsupplicationhadbeennecessarytoawomanwhomhemustabominateanddespise,andwherehewasreducedtomeet,frequentlymeet,reasonwith,persuade,andfinallybribe,themanwhomhealwaysmostwishedtoavoid,andwhoseverynameitwaspunishmenttohimtopronounce。Hehaddoneallthisforagirlwhomhecouldneitherregardnoresteem。Herheartdidwhisperthathehaddoneitforher。Butitwasahopeshortlycheckedbyotherconsiderations,andshesoonfeltthatevenhervanitywasinsufficient,whenrequiredtodependonhisaffectionforher—forawomanwhohadalreadyrefusedhim—asabletoovercomeasentimentsonaturalasabhorrenceagainstrelationshipwithWickham。Brother-in-lawofWickham!Everykindofpridemustrevoltfromtheconnection。Hehad,tobesure,donemuch。Shewasashamedtothinkhowmuch。Buthehadgivenareasonforhisinterference,whichaskednoextraordinarystretchofbelief。Itwasreasonablethatheshouldfeelhehadbeenwrong;hehadliberality,andhehadthemeansofexercisingit;andthoughshewouldnotplaceherselfashisprincipalinducement,shecould,perhaps,believethatremainingpartialityforhermightassisthisendeavoursinacausewhereherpeaceofmindmustbemateriallyconcerned。Itwaspainful,exceedinglypainful,toknowthattheywereunderobligationstoapersonwhocouldneverreceiveareturn。TheyowedtherestorationofLydia,hercharacter,everything,tohim。Oh!howheartilydidshegrieveovereveryungracioussensationshehadeverencouraged,everysaucyspeechshehadeverdirectedtowardshim。Forherselfshewashumbled;butshewasproudofhim。Proudthatinacauseofcompassionandhonour,hehadbeenabletogetthebetterofhimself。Shereadoverherauntscommendationofhimagainandagain。Itwashardlyenough;butitpleasedher。Shewasevensensibleofsomepleasure,thoughmixedwithregret,onfindinghowsteadfastlybothsheandherunclehadbeenpersuadedthataffectionandconfidencesubsistedbetweenMr。Darcyandherself。Shewasrousedfromherseat,andherreflections,bysomeonesapproach;andbeforeshecouldstrikeintoanotherpath,shewasovertakenbyWickham。
“IamafraidIinterruptyoursolitaryramble,mydearsister?”saidhe,ashejoinedher。
“Youcertainlydo,”sherepliedwithasmile;“butitdoesnotfollowthattheinterruptionmustbeunwelcome。”
“Ishouldbesorryindeed,ifitwere。Wewerealwaysgoodfriends;andnowwearebetter。”
“True。Aretheotherscomingout?”
“Idonotknow。Mrs。BennetandLydiaaregoinginthecarriagetoMeryton。Andso,mydearsister,Ifind,fromouruncleandaunt,thatyouhaveactuallyseenPemberley。”
Sherepliedintheaffirmative。
“Ialmostenvyyouthepleasure,andyetIbelieveitwouldbetoomuchforme,orelseIcouldtakeitinmywaytoNewcastle。Andyousawtheoldhousekeeper,Isuppose?PoorReynolds,shewasalwaysveryfondofme。Butofcourseshedidnotmentionmynametoyou。”
“Yes,shedid。”
“Andwhatdidshesay?”
“Thatyouweregoneintothearmy,andshewasafraidhad—notturnedoutwell。Atsuchadistanceasthat,youknow,thingsarestrangelymisrepresented。”
“Certainly,”hereplied,bitinghislips。Elizabethhopedshehadsilencedhim;buthesoonafterwardssaid:
“IwassurprisedtoseeDarcyintownlastmonth。Wepassedeachotherseveraltimes。Iwonderwhathecanbedoingthere。”
“PerhapspreparingforhismarriagewithMissdeBourgh,”saidElizabeth。“Itmustbesomethingparticular,totakehimthereatthistimeofyear。”
“Undoubtedly。DidyouseehimwhileyouwereatLambton?IthoughtIunderstoodfromtheGardinersthatyouhad。”
“Yes;heintroducedustohissister。”
“Anddoyoulikeher?”
“Verymuch。”
“Ihaveheard,indeed,thatsheisuncommonlyimprovedwithinthisyearortwo。WhenIlastsawher,shewasnotverypromising。Iamverygladyoulikedher。Ihopeshewillturnoutwell。”
“Idaresayshewill;shehasgotoverthemosttryingage。”
“DidyougobythevillageofKympton?”
“Idonotrecollectthatwedid。”
“Imentionit,becauseitisthelivingwhichIoughttohavehad。Amostdelightfulplace!—ExcellentParsonageHouse!Itwouldhavesuitedmeineveryrespect。”
“Howshouldyouhavelikedmakingsermons?”
“Exceedinglywell。Ishouldhaveconsidereditaspartofmyduty,andtheexertionwouldsoonhavebeennothing。Oneoughtnottorepine;—but,tobesure,itwouldhavebeensuchathingforme!Thequiet,theretirementofsuchalifewouldhaveansweredallmyideasofhappiness!Butitwasnottobe。DidyoueverhearDarcymentionthecircumstance,whenyouwereinKent?”
“Ihaveheardfromauthority,whichIthoughtasgood,thatitwasleftyouconditionallyonly,andatthewillofthepresentpatron。”
“Youhave。Yes,therewassomethinginthat;Itoldyousofromthefirst,youmayremember。”
“Ididhear,too,thattherewasatime,whensermon-makingwasnotsopalatabletoyouasitseemstobeatpresent;thatyouactuallydeclaredyourresolutionofnevertakingorders,andthatthebusinesshadbeencompromisedaccordingly。”
“Youdid!anditwasnotwhollywithoutfoundation。YoumayrememberwhatItoldyouonthatpoint,whenfirstwetalkedofit。”
Theywerenowalmostatthedoorofthehouse,forshehadwalkedfasttogetridofhim;andunwilling,forhersisterssake,toprovokehim,sheonlysaidinreply,withagood-humouredsmile:
“Come,Mr。Wickham,wearebrotherandsister,youknow。Donotletusquarrelaboutthepast。Infuture,Ihopeweshallbealwaysofonemind。”
Sheheldoutherhand;hekisseditwithaffectionategallantry,thoughhehardlyknewhowtolook,andtheyenteredthehouse。