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第136章（第1页）
“Iwascertainlyveryfarfromexpectingthemtomakesostronganimpression。Ihadnotthesmallestideaoftheirbeingeverfeltinsuchaway。”
“Icaneasilybelieveit。Youthoughtmethendevoidofeveryproperfeeling，Iamsureyoudid。TheturnofyourcountenanceIshallneverforget，asyousaidthatIcouldnothaveaddressedyouinanypossiblewaythatwouldinduceyoutoacceptme。”
“Oh!donotrepeatwhatIthensaid。Theserecollectionswillnotdoatall。IassureyouthatIhavelongbeenmostheartilyashamedofit。”
Darcymentionedhisletter。“Didit，”saidhe，“diditsoonmakeyouthinkbetterofme?Didyou，onreadingit，giveanycredittoitscontents?”
Sheexplainedwhatitseffectonherhadbeen，andhowgraduallyallherformerprejudiceshadbeenremoved。
“Iknew，”saidhe，“thatwhatIwrotemustgiveyoupain，butitwasnecessary。Ihopeyouhavedestroyedtheletter。Therewasonepartespecially，theopeningofit，whichIshoulddreadyourhavingthepowerofreadingagain。Icanremembersomeexpressionswhichmightjustlymakeyouhateme。”
“Thelettershallcertainlybeburnt，ifyoubelieveitessentialtothepreservationofmyregard;but，thoughwehavebothreasontothinkmyopinionsnotentirelyunalterable，theyarenot，Ihope，quitesoeasilychangedasthatimplies。”
“WhenIwrotethatletter，”repliedDarcy，“Ibelievedmyselfperfectlycalmandcool，butIamsinceconvincedthatitwaswritteninadreadfulbitternessofspirit。”
“Theletter，perhaps，beganinbitterness，butitdidnotendso。Theadieuischarityitself。Butthinknomoreoftheletter。Thefeelingsofthepersonwhowrote，andthepersonwhoreceivedit，arenowsowidelydifferentfromwhattheywerethen，thateveryunpleasantcircumstanceattendingitoughttobeforgotten。Youmustlearnsomeofmyphilosophy。Thinkonlyofthepastasitsremembrancegivesyoupleasure。”
“Icannotgiveyoucreditforanyphilosophyofthekind。Yourretrospectionsmustbesototallyvoidofreproach，thatthecontentmentarisingfromthemisnotofphilosophy，but，whatismuchbetter，ofinnocence。Butwithme，itisnotso。Painfulrecollectionswillintrudewhichcannot，whichoughtnot，toberepelled。Ihavebeenaselfishbeingallmylife，inpractice，thoughnotinprinciple。AsachildIwastaughtwhatwasright，butIwasnottaughttocorrectmytemper。Iwasgivengoodprinciples，butlefttofollowtheminprideandconceit。Unfortunatelyanonlyson（formanyyearsanonlychild），Iwasspoiltbymyparents，who，thoughgoodthemselves（myfather，particularly，allthatwasbenevolentandamiable），allowed，encouraged，almosttaughtmetobeselfishandoverbearing;tocarefornonebeyondmyownfamilycircle;tothinkmeanlyofalltherestoftheworld;towishatleasttothinkmeanlyoftheirsenseandworthcomparedwithmyown。SuchIwas，fromeighttoeightandtwenty;andsuchImightstillhavebeenbutforyou，dearest，loveliestElizabeth!WhatdoInotoweyou!Youtaughtmealesson，hardindeedatfirst，butmostadvantageous。Byyou，Iwasproperlyhumbled。Icametoyouwithoutadoubtofmyreception。Youshowedmehowinsufficientwereallmypretensionstopleaseawomanworthyofbeingpleased。”
“HadyouthenpersuadedyourselfthatIshould?”
“IndeedIhad。Whatwillyouthinkofmyvanity?Ibelievedyoutobewishing，expectingmyaddresses。”
“Mymannersmusthavebeeninfault，butnotintentionally，Iassureyou。Inevermeanttodeceiveyou，butmyspiritsmightoftenleadmewrong。Howyoumusthavehatedmeafterthatevening?”
“Hateyou!Iwasangryperhapsatfirst，butmyangersoonbegantotakeaproperdirection。”
